Albany

It was freezing cold, windy and wet on the day I touched down there. Rain stopped for a while after the service, which was good. After the burial it was even sunny, which we, Korean think it's a good sign for the person left us.
The service was held in a church and it was just too sad. Lots of people showed up and most of them including me were weeping and sobbing there.... He was just too young to leave and it is not right for us to let our loved one leave us like this. The pastor at the service said “I believe it is OK to be angry right now, to be angry at a society where this is allowed to happen.” I was relieved when he said that somehow and I appreciated him for saying that for us.

After that I was thinking about my grandma's death and realized it still hurts a lot that I didn't see her for 2 years before she left us. She brought me up and we were very closed despite we had such a huge generation gap. But at the end, I let her go like that... I haven't forgiven myself yet...

It was good to see my friend managing to smile at people but at the same time was sad to think how difficult it would be for him to do that.